Sunday, June 19, 2011

The Doldrums

Hello, megaloptera.

Greetings from Limbo, the long-ass summer between being an undergrad and a grad student.

It is a  dra-a-a-a-a-g.

Almost everything is crossed off my to-do list, and I don't know what else to do with myself.  Usually in the summer I work, do research, volunteer, travel, visit friends, date, and attend all kinds of concerts and political and cultural events.  I'm still working and visiting old friends, but that's about it.  Since I'm trying to penny-pinch as much as possible, I'm not allowing myself to do anything that costs money.  And, given that I'll be leaving in 5 weeks, it doesn't make much sense to me to build new relationships or really get involved in any projects, especially since 2 out of those 5 weeks may be spent at a second job out of town where I'll have extremely limited computer access.  (More on that in another post.)

This is all adding up to be a very listless, stir-crazy summer.

I just want to move and get this grad school thing going already.  Jesus.  Being in this dead zone, this limbo, feels so heavy, like it's dulling my brain.  I'm as prepared as I can possibly be, so let's get this fucking show on the road, man. 

Damn that apartment lease.  Damn not having enough money to move yet anyway.

Well, one last thing I have to do is revise this wisdom tooth evolution paper and send it to my future advisor, since he wants to see it.  I've been putting that off for weeks, for various dishonorable reasons.  I think I might also give a copy to my orthodontist.  He might get a kick out of it.  Or, you know, throw it in the trash...I don't know if he's a creationist or not.  How sad that one has to be diplomatic about discussing the bald scientific facts of evolutionary theory simply because, according to the GSS 2008, 49.7% of Americans deny it.  

In any case, here's a Puscifer video to get you in a desert-y mood.   I can really relate to the coyote at 0:54...